a lot of people dont like me..
its true.. people who know me alot of them do like me and i bet that they are all gonna be like "who would hate you?"
the sad part is LOTS of unfeeling and distastfull people do..
esp me.. i hate to many people .. if your out there and i have ever hated you.. im sorry..
this is my main form of bloging as i have no myspace after some bunch of pricks some how managed to get my space erased... (i do not know who or how but its gone forever) so..
i havent been on a computer for over two weeks i think.
its really been a chance for me to figure out whats been going on in my life.. i am a very angry person.. i realize that..
i want to change... i want to look you (the reader) (my fans) (you if your my fan)
(everyone who maters) (every one in my life^^)
in the eye and i want you to know.
im sorry for every time that i made you sad or hurt you..
im telling you this on here cuz i know that half of you wont ever see this..
but i need to let this out,..
my life is pretty messed up , maybe because of things i have done , maybe for things that have happened to me..
i have no direction.. people push me in so many ways it makes my head spin.. time passes by so slowly.. and yet it goes by so fast..
(im randomly writing now) back to the hating..
i hate myself yes i do.. i honestly dont know why this is.. maybe because i feel so hated.. but i would realy like to change my views on this topic.. i need a chance to free myself from my messed up self.. so please let me be sorry and let me out...